31st

Right now is 1:56 am 31st of december 2009. It's totally the right time to make a conclusion for the life in year 2009.

Well, it started quite stupid-ly on the very first day of 2009. That day, i was at kampar with my coursemates celebrating new year eve. Right after the countdown event, we went off for a race on the streets in new town of Kampar. (Kampar new town has only one big street). Few of us who have motor with us were racing through the streets. We ended up in the Petronas petrol station and guess what happened next! We're caught by the policemen there. Well, luckily i didn't get any summons from them.

Few things coming up and of course, they're quite happening for me. Friends' betrayals and boycotting. It's a hard time for me but i was able to get myself someone i wished for more than two years. Well, for those who knew me well, i think they can get what i meant. So, i think i don't need to talk so much of that here.

She's incredibly a dream for me. Well, until now, i just cant get her out of my head. She's just so irresistible for me. And of course, it was the happiest moment for me when she gave me a green light.

For the very first time, I fell so deeply in love. Seriously, i did thought of marrying her. ahha. i know it's too illogical for me that time as we are still teenagers. But this idea really came through my mind and, of course, for the first time, i made my future plans. I started to have visions and missions. I have targets to aim for. I have dreams that i think i can achieve. I started to know where am i heading for. And i found out that she was the boosting agent for me in my studies. fyi, for the first time as well, i got 3.9 in my course of study. It was incredibly siao! XD

Vividly in my memories, I can recall that i went to support them in a table tennis competition in ipoh. And of course, the memories when we went bukit merah where i got to know jj and fish. everything seems to be so nice and so smooth until i cant even believe that i was with her that time. Everyday i was so damn fear that everything that happening to me that time was just only a dream.

Well, here i would sincerely want to thank her for many things she taught me.

She taught me to be matured. I started to think more than feel before doing anything.

She taught me to be patient. Of course, boys should be patient for their loved ones.

She taught me to be tolerant. Yea, because of her, i tolerated with some stupid fellas who came into my life and well, broke my heart.

She taught me how to love. I started to learn how to love a girl so damn much.

She taught me how to buy things to "tam" my girlfriend. haha. that must be supported by the abundance of shopping malls in kl.

She taught me how to enjoy. yea. i was a nerd before this. no movie in cinema. no lepaking in sentral. no mapling.

And of course, she taught me many things more. And to be most thankful is because of her, i knew many new friends whom i siao with recently.

Thank you, you-know-who.

I love you. and again, when i said it, i do really mean it.

My year 09 will be ended with 5 continuous days skating and countdown in penang XD wish me luck for the next year. i really want a blessed year ahead. pls. XD

Nice post, bryan. XD

Well, right before posting this post, i was reading one of my friends' blog. Somehow what he posted really do happened to me before as well. And the memories will still stay there.

It's absolutely correct that some of us have frustration that couldn't be spoken out. I tried to be very generous, letting someone to just enter my previous life although i found hatred more than interest or similarities on him. Polite to say, he's someone whom i hated. To say it in a rude way, it's the only one in the world that is qualified for me to label him as "bastard".

I think it's not even necessary for me to talk what he did to me. What i can tell is just I'm pissed off every single time when i knew something about him. Even the latest xingguang dadao i also rejected to watch solely because of one of the contestants inside having the same name with him.

You may say i'm sick. Or i'm out of my logic. But, to recall back what he did, I would only choose to whack him. This is applied to those who committed the same thing in the big city. Yet, he is lucky enough that i still have my own logical thinking.

Back to the post that my friend had written:

Sometimes it's not a good idea if i say it out when the situation is bad, it's like, putting kerosene on fire, making it worst and i know this will happen even though i was told to straight to the point to tell out all the unhappiness of mine but that's not going to work and i'd done it quite a number of times.

Yea. This is very real for me. at least i found someone who faced the same thing just like me.

So to the girls out there, when your guy is keeping the unhappiness to himself, try to ask him why. But when you ask, remember one thing, take care of what he answered. When you deny what he feels or thinks with some excuses which hopes that your "him" will just accept it, and yea, your guy accepted, don't ever penalise him for keeping it to himself.

Appreciation given to bryan XD

Christmas XD

Well. it's a lonely xmas this year. i hadn't break my record yet. i mean having engaged with someone while celebrating xmas.

It might be a bad night for me. exhaustion crawled upon me. again i was feeling so damn sick during the journey back from ipoh. according to my sister, my dad was driving his car at 160km/h while i was sleeping.

Normally i will be the one who is driving. But not now. it's damn sickening. Feeling of vomiting + feeling of uneasiness + feeling of dizziness + feeling of getting off the car. I think im just too exhausted.

The previous night aka christmas eve night, spontaneously and randomly navin and me went to ipoh. together with jj and his friends. It's undeniably the craziest thing we ever did. Making decision to go ipoh in less than 2 seconds. Counting down on the car while having the uphill journey with navin. greeting each other merry christmas before entering the tunnel.

Well, it's really a haha for us. We took some photos in the washroom in petronas and managed to snap few as well right outside mcd and petronas. XD

Right on the morning the next day, we are heading out again. XD as usual our date. hopefully everything goes nice for my end of december 09. and of course the following months.

Oh no. dad is coming down. I have to sign off right now. Nitez nitez.

p/s: i;m eagerly waiting for my Sony DSLR. Mom back soon pls. LMAO.

Bodyguards and Assassins

Well, imma back from cinema with my dad and three of my cousins. We watched bodyguards and assassins. 18SG but my cousin was not even 12.

Well, nothing to do with it. No doubt, just like everyone said, it was a nice movie. Sit right behind me was fish. And the other side was chiew bee. Such a coincidence that i can meet them in the same theater hall even though we didn't plan to. Back to the movie. It's touching somehow. I appreciate much of their patriotism. Well, not to say patriotism, may be their spirit unto revolution.

I like the quote from Abraham Lincoln. Democracy is a government of the people, by the people, for the people. This spirit shall not perish from the Earth. Btw, i got to know the quote few months back when doing my assignment on heroes.

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This part is dedicated to joey.

Well, get well soon. Weather's changing without any notice. Take good care of yourself. God bless =)

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Goodnight everyone.

"p/s"

Oh before i forgot and before everything is too late...

wish everyone
冬至快乐
happy eating tang yuans yea XD

too bad this year aku tak dapat make rice balls with my family. Mom and bro off to spain.

And wish everything good for them. Worried after hearing big snow at spain. Ivan Ng, don't forget to cover your ears. hahahah.

21/12 - 22/12

ahha. imma back in taiping lu =D

last night, the very first time, my dad asked me out for a movie. LOL. Since he watched avatar in the cinema last sunday, he fell in love in cinema. well. Previously, he was banning me always from going to cinema. or setting time limit for transportation. However, now he liked watching movie in cinema. because of the great sound system.

As usual, we went for bkt again at plaza. his favourite dinner spot. And we headed for ts after dinner. The movie was supposed to be in cinema on 9 if it follows the online timeline. but no, the session is being closed down i think. well, so, sadly, we had to head home again.

Before getting out from ts, i managed to catch up with some of my former schoolmates - diamond yi, desmond han, joo hui, yim quan, ann chen, chong jin, jocelyn rou, qi sian, elvis fai, bernard onn and chee yan. I had a great talk with them, getting know how well everyone is getting on, which course they're taking after matrix and much more topics.

Well, joey, ahha, your hairstyle nice ma=P seriously, very nice. and your fishy thingy nice too:)

And i suffered from migraine i think. Was feeling so damn sick. Feeling like vomit from the moment i got home. Probably exhausted i think. And it was the first time i asked for panadols. LOL. and now, everything is nice. headache over. tiredness over.

And, NAVIN, don't forget our date! :D

Next Semester

OMG, My next semester will be freakingly heavy ><

See this



7 subjects (4 maths, 1 accounts, 1 econs, 1 english)/ 21 credit hours / 26.5 hours per week ><

it's gonna freak me out.

End of Semester 2

yea. end of semester 2. haha. so relieved ar me.

Luckily the scope being told by the sir are accurate enough. If not, i will curse him man. Back to few weeks ago when I got my mid term Q paper, all he mentioned didn't come out but those he didn't mention all came out. I was so frust man. Out of 100 marks, i got only 24?? swt.

well, at least this paper i did it quite well. thanks Lord.

and hey, jxin, this saturday FGA!! XD

pre-test activity

aluh. few more hours to test and im here dota-ing. LOL. but what i can say is i improved my dota skills liao XD today beyond godlike! navin! see here. beyond godlike liao. XDD

tsk tsk. again wish me luck! yeah. 3 times luck. i think sure can do well liao lar XD

and tmr remind me to bring my blood donation booklet back hometown. im going to donate my blood at panaroma at wednesday! XD

blek. God Bless Me!!

few more minutes

Hey, anyone realised? Few more mins it's 21st of dec. Nothing special?

Well, nothing special actually. According to the Mayans, in 3 years time, our planet Earth will be facing judgment day. Earthquakes, Earth Crust Displacement, Tsunami, Volcanoes everywhere.

My degree year 1 sem 2 life is going to end after few hours time. And i vividly remember that in one funny discussion with my coursemates in unknown time, we talked about resignation and withdrawal from the uni as we will be studying for nothing because in 3 years time, the world is self-destructing. And i said to those 4 years degree students, "Hey, after our graduation (3 years degree), we still have 3 months to work and 3 months to enjoy life before the world is doomed. But this is not applicable for those 4 years uni student like you all. LOL"

Really judgment day is coming?

In the past chatting session with Madam Monica, we talked about the MUET comprehension. Titles regarding "social crime" are coming out like mushroom after rain. According to the bible, when the day is near, crimes are happening everywhere. However, in my opinion, I think we should be prepared of anything. no matter it's bad or good. just face it.

recently, i was so frust and disappointed. time is always not playing it's own role well. the very first time, we pulled our dad for movie. sunday 12.30pm avatar. but failed at last. the feeling of disappointment is so suffering. and i feared it so so so much. ><


Well, I have to back to the bush of notes. and wish me luck for tomorrow's test.

Amen.

Deterioration :)

I was getting ready with my oral comm test actually. and i came through one section which is very real. at least it does happen on me, seriously.

the section sounded so:

Deterioration
Although many relationships remain at the intimacy stage, some enter the stage of relationship deterioration - the stage that sees the weakening of bonds between the two parties and that represents the downside of the relationship progression.

Relationships deteriorate for many reasons. When the reasons for coming together are no longer present or change drastically, relationships may deteriorate. Thus, for example, when your relationship no longer lessens your loneliness or provides stimulation or self-knowledge, or when it fails to increase your self-esteem or maximize pleasures and minimize pains, it may be in the process of deteriorating. Among the other reasons for deterioration are third-party relationships, sexual dissatisfaction, dissatisfaction with work, or financial difficulties.

The first phase of deterioration is usually intrapersonal dissatisfaction. You begin to feel that this relationship may not be as important as you had previously thought. You may experience personal dissatisfaction with everyday interactions, and begin to view the future together negatively. If this dissatisfaction continues or grows, you may pass to the second phase, interpersonal deterioration, in which you discuss these dissatisfactions with your partner.

During the process of deterioration, communication patterns change drastically. These altered patterns are in part a response to the deterioration; you communicate as you do because of the way you feel your relationship is deteriorating. However, the way you communicate (or fail to communicate) also influences the fate of your relationship. During the deterioration stage, you may, for example, increase withdrawal, communicate less, respond to computer messages more briefly and with greater delays, and self-disclose less.

This is how the section sounded. Every single words matched my experiences quite well i think.

By the way, back to my text again. I'm going to head back kl now. and have exam tmr. Hopes everything will be nice for me again just like the previous paper. Best of luck to me! =P